one – the three thousand you’re scared to admit you wasted
two – the way orange-scented soap reminds you of the first time you wore contact lenses
three – the days you showed up early and stood by the window preparing yourself
four – the time you took a selfie in the school bathroom mirror
five – the eighteenth birthday piercing you lied to get
six – the last time a boy made you cry and you were too embarrassed to leave your room
seven – the first time you scored a twenty-four
eight – the night you watched them smoke pot
nine – the words you hate but have to say because it is what it is
ten – the days you spent thinking about nothing at all
Written by Emily Fong